I feel a lot better after yesterday's blog post. I wish I had written two separate posts, as it was my Christmas ramble overshadowed everything else, but oh well. Maybe it's weird to post personal stuff, but I've found that my blog is a way to work things out - to open up and let my friends weigh in on it and help see me through. It is my way of moving forward and getting on with my life. That's what writing the Christmas ramble was for me. I spent a long time writing it, trying to pick the right words with which to explain myself most tactfully and honestly, not trying to dump guilt and blame on my parents. I do still have some anger about things, especially now that I am married and settling. It seems until now I've been looking to start a new life and do my own things as an adult and with a partner. Since there's no more looking, and instead now having, it's given some time for unresolved issues to creep up. It's like I was running away from it all to start my adult life, and now that I have it, I'm not running anymore. And shit's catching up, you see?
However, the fact that I'm still working on stuff shouldn't negate the fact that I have experienced a lot and learned a great deal about life. And I'm definitely still learning. Aren't we all? Take the good with the bad. Keep your chin up when you can and when you can't, work it out the best way you know how. 'Nuff said.
And so what's today looking like? Pretty good, actually. The rain finally stopped; we have clear blue skies and cooler temps. It finally feels like holiday time. Woohoo. I need to continue to prep the house more for...well, everything: more Christmas decorations, actually setting up the two guest rooms, etc. Plus, since Joe went back to work (boo), I'm back to being home alone with tardo, so we'll have to go for a walk at some point. Also, though I'm a bit embarrassed, I have to tell you (or have I already?) that we bought Dex a small doggie pool and play sand. Yeah. He's digging up the damn yard, so I had the idea for a sandbox for him. I think I may put it together for him today and laugh at my own insanity. Maybe I'll make a cocktail while I sit out back and watch him [hopefully] go to town.
Tonight, if Joe gets home on time, we may go buy our tree It's pretty exciting, but we're gonna have to rearrange the hell out of our living room in order to fit the tree in here. Damn. I just remembered; our bed may be arriving today. Shit, and I gotta pay rent. I should probably end this and actually start doing stuff. And by doing stuff, I mean, make a coffee and continue to sit some more until I have such terrible caffeine jitters, that I just twitch right off the couch. Cheers!
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Yeah, be sure to pay the rent. Last month I wrote the check and put it in my purse to drop off at the office and totally forgot about it. Nothing like having your landlord call you two days later saying "if you don't have it here by noon we're charging you a late fee." Blarg!
Dude - I'm glad we don't live together or we'd get nothing done. Drinking coffee til ya get the jitters and watching the dog (or cats) get into stuff sounds like a FANTASTIC way to spend the day! :) Sometimes too much responsibility piles up at once...and then you're reminded on how much it sucks to be an adult!
Dude. You're exactly right. I should be thankful for today because tomorrow's is a bitch slap of adulthood. My car won't start. I don't really know what to do with it because I don't have a mechanic here. Also, Joe won't be around tomorrow to help at all. Maybe instead I'll just sit in Dex's sandbox with him. But then I really won't get the rent paid, as I didn't make it today, and it's due by the third. Blarg, indeed.
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