Black Cleavage

That's right. I actually shot spray paint down the front of my tank top this afternoon as I was working on a home project outside. Folks, don't try to adjust doors on a media cabinet with spray paint in your hand. Put it down first. Seriously.

It's already almost three o'clock, and I feel like I have hardly accomplished anything. Pretty soon I need to shower and get ready to go to dinner with one of my gf's before we go to post for a meeting. Bah. I soooo want to just sit here and relax until I motivate myself enough to start doing more crap around the house. Gosh, I just realized this whole thing is going to turn very whiny if I don't stop. So I'll stop.

Let's talk about military wives. Before I got down here, I heard stories of how mean military wives can be to each other - catty, bitchy women who are poisonous in their jealousy. When I first experienced it myself, I was a bit caught off guard, as I'd rarely talked about Joe's job and what all he does (to anyone other than family and close friends), much less put it in anyone's face. Still, as I've blogged about previously my neighbor was disrespectful to me regarding Joe's work. Today, something similar happened to a friend of mine, and she says even less to other people (those who aren't family or close friends) than I do. Still, this woman (another Army wife) made a comment about her own husband working for his rank with regard to my friend's husband coming in as an E-4 (due to his college education) and having his rank handed to him. Why? Why should that ever be verbalized? I don't understand. And my friend's husband is deployed. Don't pick on a man who's currently overseas doing his fucking job, and certainly don't pick on him to his wife who is back home missing him. Bah. It makes me so mad. It turns out this other woman had in the past pushed her husband to do certain training that he'd told her wasn't for him. As it turns out, my friend's husband has completed the aforementioned training and is leading the military lifestyle this other woman had always wanted. I guess jealousy truly can poison a human being.

I'm jealous in some ways too, but I try no to tear down others because of it. I do understand the poisonous side to it, though, as it is hard to be happy when you're hanging on to things you shouldn't. I'm getting better with things, but I still have issues sometimes with the way I got married. (C'mon, let's beat this dead horse some more.) I'm seeing everyone else do it now - different things done here and there that I wish I could have done. But it's alright. I got married, and I'm with the man I love. The main thing now is a honeymoon. It's very hard to swallow having our lives dictated in such a way that Joe can barely take a weekend trip, much less a honeymoon with me. It's been very difficult lately watching other people get to mark the start of their marriage with travel and truly focusing on each other amidst it, and it's not that I'm not happy for them because I am. I'm just sad for myself. The most traveling we've done together since getting married was moving to Georgia. Think of the act of moving and think of a honeymoon. No comparison!!! Still, I'm not being an asshole, making terrible comments to other people. The pity part does need to stop, though, and I'm continuing to work on it. I know I'll be a happier, better person when I can finally make peace with things. Plus, we may finally get to take a trip in January of next year - two year anniversary honeymoon...ha - so I guess I can use the next nine months to scope out places to go. That said, don't expect a lot for Christmas this year, everyone. :-)

I have to go shower now and get my cleavage back to it's natural, pale color. S'cuse me.