And I Already Want to Drink

I'm trying to focus on what a hot man I married. Yessss.

Hmm. The video conference that I was supposed to have with Joe today went straight to hell, which has me a little bit frustrated right now. Long story short, the phone lines where Joe is were shut down yesterday (which in itself is a sign that something bad happened - something worse than a VTC being canceled), so he didn't get to call and give me the details for today, which it turns out he didn't even have. I then called around to his NCOs last night who did not really know what all was going on. Then I hear from Joe this morning, and he can't track down the dude over there who initially approached him with this idea. I mean, at one point this morning, I was going back and forth between Joe over there and one of his NCOs over here. WTF. So it's not happening today. Yeah, and Joe and I didn't just dream up this idea of getting to see each other - neither of us had even considered it. But, WE WERE ASKED IF WE WANTED TO, etc. So for many days, I was thinking how cool Joe's unit is and what a great opportunity...blah blah blah. By now, I should know that his unit's reputation is the antithesis of what I actually know them to be. DAMN THEM. Also, realizing yesterday how unorganized this thing was/is, I began to get pretty anxious about it. And let me tell you something, since Joe has been gone, I've carried myself well outwardly, but my stress/anxiety has culminated in a more covert way - a way in which my back hurts ALL.THE.TIME. It finally stopped for a couple days, but by god, it's back now.

Also, if no one could tell, I have been a little bit I dunno lonely. I've wanted desperately to see an old familiar face. Hell, I've even thought about asking my dad to come visit me...but I think he's a little bit busy, so is my mom. So, when the Croat told me she was coming to visit, I almost cried. Yes, she is coming on the 22nd, and I am so excited!! It's great news, and it makes my back feel better too. :-) As I told Joe, there's something very empowering about just being understood, and there's only a few people in this world that truly 'get me.' She's one of them, and we always have a great time together. Also, she may be bringing a hot dog costume for Dex to wear, so I'm pretty pumped about that too.

In other anxiety provoking news, I have to go to the lady doc today. TMI? Eh. Maybe. Oh well. Nothing good comes from those visits, and on top of that, I'll be having to tell yet another person of my medical history - i.e. things I don't like talking about. Notice it's the emotional intrusiveness that I really don't like. Getting into stirrups ain't no thing....

In good news, I went to the gym twice this week, and I am sore in that good good way. Yesterday I did some squats and jumping lunges, which is being in a lunge position, popping up into the air, switching legs, and landing back in a lunge position (and then repeating in rapid succession). Try it. It's f'ing hard. But you will feel worked the following day. I sure do. And then I came home and mowed the lawn, which was a workout in itself.

Today is my only day off, as I work this weekend (with hot black doctor). With that, I guess I'll get started with some breakfast, and then it's time to get ready for the doc.