All self-inflicted of course. This title isn't referencing anything other than my inability to get myself to the gym. It's important to note that I'm watching Biggest Loser as I type this. Inspired much?
I know that I don't need major weight loss, but I do need to be healthy - get my body moving, have energy, and FEEL good. Also, it'd be nice to tone up a bit. Though I think I've mentioned it before, embarrassed, I'll admit again that I have a Gold's membership, and I've had one for about a year now. I just rarely use it. WTF, right? When I was back home living with my parents while Joe was gone, I used my membership there religiously. AND, I worked full time amidst going. I would go immediately from work to the gym and then show up at home where often there would be food to eat that Jan had cooked. GOD, I HAD IT GOOD. Now, despite working only 29 hours/week, I rush home to the dog because he is bananas with his unending energy. I feel bad if he's in his crate all day. Still, I'm trying to work it in. Today, I packed all my clothes and had everything with me at work to go straight to the gym. If I have to come home, it's over. The dog sees me, and I'm done. Well, today I realized I'd forgotten my CELL PHONE at home. That can't happen with Joe being gone. He knows my work number, so I was fine while I was there, but I couldn't not come home and get my cell phone. Which led to letting the dog out for a bit. Which led to Joe calling and me sitting and talking to him. By that time, it was the crazy busy time for the gym, and I'm not comfortable there when it's like that. I don't like Gold's as much as the Centre anyway because Rolla is so tiny and familiar. Here, it's bigger and more scary, and I'm just not quite used it...probably because I don't go enough, right? So there we have it. All this bullshit put down in writing only to realize that I need to suck it up and just do it.
But there is some good: I am busy around the house, and I've started walking Dex again for 30 minutes-ish in the evenings. Also, I don't eat like I do when Joe is home...though I did binge on cookies and wine over the weekend - mostly cookies. Okay, and chocolate truffles - but no more than two per day. Omg.
Whew, now I can move on. Despite the cookies and wine, I did have a productive weekend at home. Got exercise with mowing - yeah, part of the yard even requires me wearing cleats so I don't die. Cleaned some, organized/decorated, and hauled a bunch of crap to Goodwill. Getting rid of stuff feels SO GOOD. I don't think I could ever be a hoarder. You're welcome, Joe. Speaking of him, I may get to see him on Friday. Say what?! Yes, through satellite video at his company. I'm excited, though I do feel a little guilty. He hasn't been gone that long...hmm...but gone is gone, so what the hell. Now, if this does go down, wear my hair curly or straight..... Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
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Personally, I've given up going to the gym during the school year. I just accept the fact that I look teacher-frumpy. :) :) Hee hee
I hate the gym. I avoid it at all costs. But sometimes I need a good swim and go to the pool. I did take a little "tour" the other day so I would atleast know where everything else was. It's pathetic. But do it for you. When you're ready, you'll bust a move! And don't feel bad about wine and chocolate...EVER!
If you need a walking buddy - let me know. We could wear a pedometer and track our steps or something. It always helps to have someone be accountable to ya know?
You can walk Dexter. I can walk Cody. They're both furry and semi-crazy. :)
Oh - and YAY for seeing Joe! As for hair - go with whatever it wants to do the morning of.
Haha yes! I want to cry almost every day. It's so pathetic, but we're on quite the emotional rollercoaster.
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