Oh Man

When you read the title, I don't know how the words sound in your head, but please hear them as the lawyer from Scrubs was always saying them. In a high pitched, spineless, defeated way.

Let me preface this with the fact that the best part of my day was when I was at work. But shit, that statement deserves a disclaimer in that work really wasn't all that bad today. Still, when work is my highlight, you know things aren't great. And that's not to say they're incredibly bad because that's not true either - just stupid, irritating stuff. Almost immediately after work I met up with another wife for some food and talk. It got a bit tense, as I've been in the middle of her and another wife re. an op-sec violation, even though there was no violation. Anyhow, pseudo violations aside, this particular person is making it hard for me to be around her. She absolutely hates her life as an Army wife and is always trash talking the lifestyle to me. At first I tried to help her - be her support, etc but to no avail. And she keeps saying "This isn't for everyone." The more I think about that phrase, the more I just want to boil over. No, this isn't for everyone, but us wives don't always have a choice. Do I enjoy all aspects of the military and being a part from my husband? Hell no. But do I choose my husband? Yes. So that's why I'm willing to do this. That's why I stay. Because I love him. I choose to be strong, and I choose to be happy despite the tough stuff. And so, this situation isn't necessarily FOR me either, but I make the damn best of it because my life, wherever I'm located, is better with Joe in it.

Speaking of him, I had a brief second highlight of the day when he called me earlier. We laughed and danced around all the crap we're not allowed to say, but most importantly we talked for a sec about how good our marriage is. :-) Good times. A bit after that, I took Dex for a walk. After we got back, I prepared to do battle with my computer and scanner. After uninstalling and reinstalling various bullshit, I managed to use my USAA at home check deposit on two of my four checks before everything quit again. I spent 3-4 hours working on this deal and at one point broke down in tears wanting desperately to give my laptop a good hurl across the house like I do my cell phone when I'm pissed. But I didn't. Instead I gave up. I so thought tonight would be victorious. Idiot. I guess I'll try again tomorrow, but that time slot was going to be reserved for trying to fix the lawn mower. We're just loaded up with bullshit around here. Damn it.

(And then the internet kicked out last night, and I couldn't post until now.)