Cleanse

Well, if anyone has made it over here, you know I changed my blog address.  I did this immediately following round one of Facebook deletions.  It feels good.  Eventually I may delete Facebook altogether and push this blog into being totally private...but not yet. 

Today was whack.  I was just super emotional and stressed out about Joe's work.  Of course, I've always been emotional.  A high school boyfriend - Dave - once told me that I needed a switch to turn off my emotions.  I don't think about him much, but I always think about those words.  He's damn right - I do need something to switch me off sometimes. 

Yesterday I went to Wal-Mart a little keyed up - again due to Joe's job.  I was cool when I got in the store and found there were no baskets - just carts, which I didn't need.  And I managed to keep it together when the line I was waiting in at the outdoor area got closed due to a register problem, and I had to wheel my cart across the store to the regular register area.  And I was fine pushing my empty cart back over to the entrance, as my reusable bag was over my shoulder.  But when I got to the foyer area between the two sets of doors and wheeled my cart around so it was facing the inside of the store, ready for the next customer who entered, it apparently didn't set well with the entrance/exit attendee.  The lady, donning a santa hat, said to me in that joking but not really way "I'm gonna get you."  I asked why, and she informed that carts didn't go there.  I told her it'd be nice if they did, as every Wal-Mart in Missouri has a cart ready for you as you walk in.  It ended with a quick back and forth at each other until a customer came in and said they'd take the cart before the attendee bitch could put it back outside.  YES, THAT IS WHY I PUT IT THERE - not to be a bitch, not to piss someone off, but to be helpful.  I actually went home and cried afterward.  Just seems like you try to do good and someone is there to tear it down.  I tried to consider maybe the lady had a bad day, but good gracious.     


With all that I tried not to leave the house today, save a couple errands.  Probably a bad idea since the dogs were nuts today, and the puppy was especially a lunatic.  I should have left all damn day or at least gone on a walk.  Finally, in the evening things calmed down.  I decided to make snickerdoodles, and the puppy came and laid calmly at my feet.  TOO CUTE.  Dex laid in the kitchen doorway, and Lu was in and out, occasionally making sweeps for any dropped food.  Everyone was calm.  It was nice, relaxing even, and a good way to end a hectic day.