Like a Speedball, but Minus the Cocaine & Heroin

I could write a damn book about the highs and lows with Joe Mulia. You better believe I rode out today as best I could. I know I was coming down from yesterday and the days that led up to it, so I allowed myself the day to be a slug, watching TV and napping. I ate cookies, pizza, and drank a soda - JUNK. I didn't force myself to do anything, though I did accept a dinner invitation from my neighbor and had hamburgers with them over at their house. See, I still slipped in some human contact, all the while refraining from slashing my wrists. Woohoo.

However, I did try to get my brain to start refocusing - next home project, money, my career future, etc. While Joe was home I did briefly ask him again about his feelings on me quitting. We've talked about it before. It was not a good time, though, so his answer had some hesitation and seemingly mixed feelings on the subject, whereas he's previously been very much on board with me quitting. I just need more time to discuss it with him. That said, he does not do ANYTHING with the money except occasionally sign into his MYPAY to tell me what the hell is going on with his funds. It's been me who's organized the debt and gotten it paid off. A lot of it was mine, so I felt guilty and like I needed to take care of it. But I've done a few things for Joe - paid off his shitty credit cards and gotten him one attached to mine in which I am the primary with the end result being that I've raised his credit score about 100 points in the last few years. Yes, that's right. So if I think we'll be in a place where it's financially feasible for me to quit working for the time being, then by golly we surely will be! 1. My job is soul-less. 2. I want to be home when Joe is home. As I've mentioned many times before, those are the two main reasons that I would like to not work. The cut in income would only be temporary, as when Joe gets out of the Army, he will start at a reasonable wage. So where we are now, if after all our bills for which we get statements are paid, and we have $1600 per month for everything else on top of the savings we already have, I think we can make it until the next thing comes along. And with Joe's resume, it will. Okay, yeah, things I need to talk to my husband about; I know. BUT HE'S NOT HERE!!!!!

More money stuff but inspirational this time: On the blog I wrote on 2/17/10, I mentioned still owing $16,931 on my student loans. Well, here on 6/5/10, my current pay off amount is $5786 and some change. I try to remember this when I'm driving around my 13 year old car. The loans will be done by the end of July. I'm going to pull some out of savings to finish it off, but it'll be gone. Then we save for a vehicle. I can't wait to pull up to whatever place we choose to purchase a car and pay CASH. Especially if it's a dealer. I'll be sure to dress down that day just to increase the surprise factor. Ah, thus I am a nerd. Twenty six year olds should be fantasizing about much different things. And yet here I just want to whip out a cashier's check (or whatever) for the full amount of a car...