So last night I sat crunching numbers and exploring new(er) vehicle options to replace our (2) 13 year old Jap cars and was planning according to all these different things. With the completion of Ranger School will come a likely promotion for Joe, and of course after July, there will be no $3000/mo student loan payment. That time will then be such to save for cars and consider our family dynamic a bit more: Joe constantly here and then gone as quickly, as everyone in this world knows by my screaming it regularly. The stressful nature of my job combined with trying to make sure I'm available when Joe is home lends itself to strongly considering that I sacrifice (ha) my employment to maximize the time we get to spend together. No date is set, and I certainly would not announce anything here without first giving notice to my employer. But still, you get the picture.
Today, though, I realized some things at work that may warrant a more speedy exit. I can't say a whole lot here, but it looks like a fork in the road ahead with one path leading to unemployment and soon. This would be a fantastic time to talk to Joe and hear his reassurance. (I mean, I know it's there, but sometimes you gotta hear it again.) I really don't think he'd like what's beginning to unfold, and I think he would tell me to get out of there. With that, I believe I can make the decision best for us if forced to do so by myself, as I'm not in the business of selling my sanity for a paycheck just yet. So maybe just one newer car for now. :-)
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I hope it all pans out for you. It truly sounds like your job is a nightmare sometimes (or all the time). Your sanity is SO much more important. Sometimes you just have to take care of you...a job will always be there.
When a decision would come up in my family and one of my parents wasn't available to discuss it, "an executive decision" was made -- meaning my mom could make such decision and my dad would go along with it, no questions asked. It was something they worked out a long time ago and I'm sure it's been a major asset to their marriage.
Oh, we have executive decision making power in this house. Shoot, I put the security deposit down on this house and signed with my POA. Hell yeah. :-) It's just that it's always me that makes the decision, and this time I haven't wanted the sole power. I want to talk to Joe just for reassurance...but I think I have things figured out enough to do what I gotta.
Do what your gut tells you to do! Don't stay in a toxic place!
Love ya girl!
I didn't "work" when Vern was active duty--like you, I wanted to be home when he was, and this was before kids. I understand about executive decisions--its tiresome being the responsible one ALL THE TIME. We can do it, but it is nice to share the load once in a while, and sometimes even nicer to dump the load onto the shoulders of our husbands! I'm with ya, girl!!
You know they should have a holiday dedicated to the SPOUSES of military. A national holiday.
And we should get gifts of Godiva Chocolate and pedicures....I hear ya Katie - an absent husband is the hardest thing in the world to cope with :( All I can say is I hope the time flies by for you!!
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