Angry High School Katie

In what I've determined to be the product of a fight with my father and getting back on birth control after about a month and a half off of it, Angry High School Katie has been back the last few days. Yes, that fight I first wrote about several weeks ago with my dad that was triggered by Facebook comments is still going on. After finally getting my thoughts together, I wrote him about a week ago and never got a response. I hate to admit it, but it's been eating me up, and since I had a quiet painting project at home over the weekend, I've had plenty of time to think and stew. However, today I had an epiphany. Of course since I'm older now, I handle things a bit better than I did in high school, but when it comes to my dad, I need to kick it old school. In high school I did try to initiate positive change between my father and me, to no avail. But what made my life better, more balanced and happier was when I went to college and got the hell away from dad. Of course, at present I am already away, and Georgia is plenty far. Now I just need to let it go, emotionally. As INXS once sang,

"I'm standing here on the ground
The sky above won't fall down
See no evil in all direction
Resolution of happiness
Things have been dark
For too long

Don't change for you
Don't change a thing for me"

With all this crazy emotional and hormonal shit going on, I'm glad I have little Dexter to keep me company. Tonight when I was still pretty upset, I was sitting on the couch and looked over at him. He was laying down but had his head up a bit looking at me, like "What are you doing now woman?" Something about just being damn glad that he was there made me start to cry, which meant he moved closer to nudge and play bite. Ha. After I quit crying, Dex stood up on the couch and did the doggy "sit" pose, but as he did (or struck it, rather), he just completely flopped against me. It felt so intentional, as if he was trying to cheer me up. His head was up above me on my head and his shoulders were against my face. I started to laugh then and couldn't stop, which Dex took at the signal for "play." He tried to mouth me and ended up biting my hair. It was pretty hilarious. Over the course of several minutes, he kept assing around, so much in fact that he fell ass first off the couch. I heart Dex and his (mostly) unconditional love.

PS. Is my background no longer showing up for anyone else? My computer can't or view it anymore even after a restart. Bye bye single fall tree. Also, I can't read "Life of Ty" anymore. No background on that blog and no words. Damn it.